So a very interesting topic came up with someone as a result of my previous journal that I thought I should address in a new one. (Can't keep editing the first one.) But first, in relation to my previous journal? First of all I want to thank those of you who so swiftly offered me comforting words and concern, I have such amazing friends. Also, I got my answer from one of those anonymous individuals, and guess what? The answer was "no other mice show up in the story", aka the title is misleading on purpose. I told you, they do this to me all the time for now reason and just enjoy watching me get upset. >_>
Now this is a real simple matter to address. Am I submissive? Am I dominant? Am I a switch? Before I go into the spiel, let me answer: I am a switch, who is primarily dominant. At LEAST 75% dominant.
When I was a boy, like I said way back when I didn't feel like I could be myself. I felt like there were expectations of me, ones I didn't like. I was a girl deep down, and she wanted out. So I let her out, and finally became more comfortable with the idea of being spanked by others (does not like "most" male spankees, including myself as one). People saw me as a dom, despite a few wanting to dom me, but when I transitioned into being a woman... for some reason that changed. I mean, yeah, I'm short, I'm cute, I'm sexy, I get it that's hard for a lot of people to resist. Did I mention I'm modest?
But a lot of people assumed that I became a woman because I wanted to be dominated. Which by the way, is EXTREMELY sexist. I'm talking to you "Butterscotch" or whatever the hell name your going by now you fake f#$k. Dude actually laughed at me when I said I wanted to be dominant, asking why did I become a girl then? I don't remember his name but I heard from a lot of people he was two face and only befriending people to get closer to Mina. Luckily I hear nothing of the tool anymore.
But yeah, "Puppy Time" did not help, because it ended up becoming many people's first impression. I get told that if I act like a dom, people will respect me. No they don't..... No they won't..... And it's not because the damage is done. It's because when I'm not being dominant I'm being an adorable goofball. It's because my wardobe is that of a schoolgirl maid and I can't afford appropriate formal attire. And even if I had the attitude and wardrobe, when I try to dominate people they roleplay themselves pulling out of my grasp and then turning the tables on me, which I immediately shoot down and end the fun there. People can't freaking resist for some reason, they want to dominate me SO. DAMN. BADLY. Why?!
I have not changed from when I was Xam/Dragonlare, I'm just more open about my being spanked side now. And I don't mind the art, the playful swats from friends, but the fact that... no one sees me as a dom? It bugs the piss out of me! Well, select friends see me as one and I appreciate that, but it's like everyone got a taste of my hot cross buns, and they want more and more and more!
I'm flattered, and like I said I don't mind it too much, but what people need to understand and recognize is that I'm a dom, primarily. Thanks for listening. ^^